1. When Your Eyes Found Mine

Chapter 8

That’s life

Scene: Living Room — Writing Session Turns to Tension

The living room is a comfortable mess — lyrics scribbled on napkins and old notebooks, empty coffee mugs sweating on the floor, and the low instrumental loop of a piano melody playing on repeat. Afternoon sunlight spills through the curtains, soft and golden, but the mood in the room is sluggish. They've been at this for hours.

Tui is cross-legged on the rug with his keyboard balanced on a low table, poking at chords. William is sprawled on the recliner, tossing ideas into the air that no one is really catching. Lego sits hunched over his laptop on the floor, earbuds halfway in, editing a rough vocal from earlier.

On the couch: Nut and Hong.

They’re both quiet. They’ve been quiet for a while. Hong has his lyric book open, pen tapping idly on the page. Nut sits beside him, body slightly turned in Hong’s direction. From across the room, it looks casual. Unremarkable. But Nut’s hand is carefully hidden between the cushions, and after a pause, his fingers brush against Hong’s.

Just lightly, like a question.

Hong’s eyes flick down, and his fingers twitch. For a heartbeat, Nut thinks he’ll pull away.

But then Hong shifts his hand, turning it palm-up, and lets Nut hold it.

No one else notices.

It’s a quiet, stolen closeness — the kind that says “I still need you,” even when they’ve stopped knowing how to say that out loud. Their hands stay joined beneath the notebook, out of sight, a small anchor in a room full of half-finished songs and words they haven't dared speak.

Nut wants to stay there. Just for a minute longer.

But Tui speaks up. “Okay, hear me out. What if we change the pre-chorus to build slower? The way we have it now feels too punchy — it kills the mood.”

“I’ve already rewritten it twice,” Hong says, sharper than he intends. “We can’t keep circling.”

Lego looks up. “We’re just trying to get it right.”

“I am trying,” Hong snaps, louder now. He yanks his hand from under the notebook. “But every time we land on something good, someone wants to change it again.”

The air stiffens. William blinks. “Whoa. That came out of nowhere.”

“No, it didn’t,” Hong fires back, standing. “You guys keep going in circles because no one wants to commit to anything. We’re wasting time.”

Nut slowly rises from the couch too. “You mean you don’t want to compromise.”

Hong whips around to face him. “Excuse me?”

“You heard me,” Nut says, voice low, tight with restraint. “You think every suggestion is a threat. Like you're the only one who understands the song.”

“Maybe because I’m the only one actually feeling it!” Hong shouts. “You’re too busy — ” He stops. The words hover on his tongue, dangerous.

Nut’s eyes narrow. “Say it.”

The room holds its breath.

“You’re too busy pretending like nothing’s wrong,” Hong says finally, quieter but more cutting. “Like this — us — it doesn’t matter. Like none of it ever happened.”

The silence that follows is thick and brittle.

Lego glances nervously between them. William shifts awkwardly in the chair. Even Tui stops playing.

Nut’s face hardens, but his eyes — his eyes are full of something else. Hurt. Exhaustion. Maybe guilt.

“I’m not pretending,” Nut says. “I’m trying to keep going.”

“Well, I can’t,” Hong says. “Not when you act like holding my hand fixes everything.”

Nut’s fists clench at his sides. “I didn’t think it would fix anything,” he says quietly. “I just missed you.”

The words land like a bruise.

Hong’s shoulders drop for a moment, but he turns away before anyone can see it. “I need space,” he mutters. “I’ll come back later.”

He walks out, not slamming the door but closing it firmly enough to make the message clear.

Scene: After Nut Leaves — Quiet Tension, Unspoken Truths

The door shuts behind Nut with a soft click.

Silence settles again in the living room, heavier now. The looping piano instrumental still plays from Tui’s setup, but no one’s really listening. Hong’s absence hangs in the air like steam after a storm. So does Nut’s.

William lets out a long breath and drops back onto the recliner. “Okay, what the hell was that?”

Tui doesn’t look up. He’s back to tinkering with chords like nothing happened. “Two people having a meltdown,” he says flatly. “Business as usual.”

William sits up straighter. “No, that wasn’t just about the song. They’ve been acting weird for weeks. Months, maybe. You don’t feel that?”

Lego closes his laptop a little too slowly, keeping his eyes on the screen.

Tui shrugs. “I don’t know. People fight. They get tired. That’s life.”

“But they’re like…” William gestures vaguely, frustrated. “There’s something off between them. They don’t joke around anymore. They barely make eye contact half the time, and then other times it’s like — ” He cuts himself off. “I don’t know. Like they're still in love or something.”

At that, Lego finally looks up.

His expression doesn’t change. No smirk, no agreement. Just an unreadable stillness.

William notices. “You know something, don’t you?”

Lego leans back against the wall, arms crossed. “I know they’re not okay. That’s it.”

Tui snorts. “If it was any of our business, they'd say something.”

William rubs his face. “It is kind of our business, though. We’re in a group together. If they fall apart, we fall apart.”

“That’s dramatic,” Tui says.

“It's realistic,” William shoots back. “You saw them just now. That wasn’t just artistic differences. That was — something else. Personal. It’s always personal with them.”

Lego taps a knuckle against the side of his laptop, a quiet, repetitive rhythm. “Maybe they’re just trying to figure it out.”

William eyes him. “You sure you don’t know anything?”

Lego says nothing. Just holds William’s gaze for a moment too long, then looks away.

That’s enough of an answer, even if it's not a direct one.

Tui stands, stretches, and slaps his hands against his thighs. “Alright. That’s enough drama for me. I’m getting noodles. Anyone want anything?”

“Dude, seriously?” William frowns. “You don’t care at all?”

Tui picks up his phone and wallet. “I’ve got enough emotional chaos in my own life. Let them sort theirs out.”

He heads for the door.

William shakes his head, then looks to Lego again. “They’re not just friends, are they?”

Lego shrugs. “Were they ever?”

He opens his laptop again, as if that ends the conversation.

The room slips back into silence, this time colder, tighter around the edges. The song still loops in the background, soft and distant now. Like it's waiting for someone — anyone — to come back and finish it.

Scene: Late Night, Rooftop — Just the Two of Them

It’s well past midnight when Hong finds Nut on the rooftop of the apartment building, sitting alone on the low concrete ledge. The city hums softly beneath them — distant headlights, far-off dogs barking, the occasional shout from some street corner. The night air is thick and warm, still holding onto the heat of the day.

Nut’s back is to him. He’s wearing that same old hoodie, hunched over with his elbows on his knees, staring down at nothing in particular. His foot taps restlessly against the ledge.

Hong walks over and sits beside him, not too close, not too far. They sit in silence for a few moments. The weight of everything between them fills the space like fog.

Then, Nut speaks first — quietly.

“You didn’t have to come.”

Hong doesn’t look at him. “I know.”

Another beat of silence. Then Nut rubs his hands together and says, “I just… I didn’t mean to make it weird. That wasn’t what I wanted.”

Hong turns to look at him. “Then what did you want, Nut?”

Nut frowns, struggling for words. “I don’t know. I thought we were okay. I thought… I thought it was just something that happened. And it was fine.”

“You think it was fine?” Hong asks, his voice tight. “That night meant something to me.”

Nut flinches. “I didn’t say it didn’t.”

“You said it was ‘just something that happened.’” Hong folds his arms, eyes fixed on Nut now.

“Do you even know what it meant to me?”

Nut opens his mouth, then closes it. Shakes his head. “No. I guess I don’t.”

Hong exhales slowly, as if he’s been holding it in for weeks. “I’m not mad because we slept together. I’m mad because you act like it didn’t change anything. Like I’m not allowed to feel different now.”

Nut looks down. “It’s not like I didn’t care. I did. I do.”

“Then why did you pretend nothing happened?”

“Because I didn’t want to screw this up,” Nut blurts. “Because I didn’t want to lose you.”

Hong stares at him, thrown off by the honesty.

Nut looks at him now, really looks. “I don’t know how to do this, Hong. I’m not good at feelings and saying the right things. I thought if I didn’t talk about it, it’d just... settle. Go back to normal.”

“It’s not supposed to go back to normal,” Hong says softly. “That night, when you kissed me, when we — when we let it happen… I thought you wanted it too. That it meant something.”

Nut’s eyes flash with something — guilt? Confusion? Fear?

“I did,” he says. “But I didn’t know what to do with that. I didn’t think someone like you could actually… love someone like me.”

Hong lets out a shaky laugh, bitter and tender all at once. “Nut. I’ve been in love with you for longer than I can remember. I just didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to ruin what we had. And then… that night happened. I thought maybe you loved me back.”

Nut’s throat bobs as he swallows hard. “I don’t know if I understand what love is. But I know I don’t want to be without you.”

That stops Hong for a moment. He blinks. His voice, when it comes, is quieter now.

“That’s not the same thing.”

Nut’s shoulders sink. “I know.”

The night wind passes between them again.

“I’m not mad at you for not knowing,” Hong says after a long pause. “But you can’t keep treating me like a friend when you’ve already touched me like a lover. That’s not fair to me.”

Nut nods slowly. “You’re right. It’s not.”

Hong looks out at the city lights. “So what now?”

Nut takes a breath, deep and nervous. “I don’t want to lose what we have. But I don’t want to keep hurting you either.”

“You have to choose,” Hong says, gently. “We either try to figure this out together, or we stop pretending.”

Nut is quiet for a long time. Then: “I want to try. But I’ll need time.”

Hong finally looks at him again. “You always have time with me, Nut. I just need honesty. And I need you to stop being so scared of how much I love you.”

Nut smiles faintly, sad and soft. “Okay.”

They sit in silence again, closer this time. Shoulders just brushing. The city lights blink below them like stars.

Nut doesn’t take Hong’s hand. But he doesn’t move away either.

And for now, that’s enough.

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